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I’m Leaving Now

September 1, 2011 By Sandra Heska King

My mom fell Sunday.

I’m grateful that my sister lives only a couple blocks away.

My phone is text hot.

And I battle guilt.

Again.

I’m squished between grandchildren and aging parents.

And in every crisis I struggle with whether I need to go now or to see if my presence is more needful later.

I live 200 miles away.

My bags have been packed all week.

Waiting.

They’ve found a brain tumor they believe is malignant.

Things don’t seem to be going too well right now, and my sister has to be tired.

My dad, too.

I can’t stand it any more.

I’m leaving.

Now.

 

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  1. Glynn says

    September 3, 2011 at 11:37 pm

    Sandra – we’re praying for your family.

  2. S. Etole says

    September 3, 2011 at 11:40 pm

    The Lord is with you in those tight places … hiding you in the cleft of the rock. Prayers for all … many prayers.

  3. diana says

    September 4, 2011 at 12:26 am

    Oh, Sandy – I know exactly where you are. I, too, am sandwiched between grandchildren for whom we care two days each week and an aging mom who lives 130 miles from me. I have no sister, just one brother left, who lives 300 miles north of me. Sigh. Prayers are with you, dear bird-loving-sister-whose-granddaughters-have-the-same-names-as-mine. I am so, so sorry for this hard news. Blessings of love and peace surround and fill you!

    And oh, how I hope you can come to Texas! (Along with every other dear one I’m learning to know this year!)

  4. Beth says

    September 4, 2011 at 12:27 am

    Sandra my heart aches for you.
    Go in God speed and be safe.

    Lord we lift Sandra and her travelign up to you. We ask that you would lead and guide her. Give her traveling mercies Lord. Thank you that you are with her family Lord give each one your peace that surpasses all understandng in Jesus name. We thank you that you are giving stregnth to all. Send those perfect laborers to help up lift and encourage Lord. We thank you for your healing balm upon her mom Lord and that she is the healed in Jesus name. Thank you Lord for your comforter in Jesus name Amen

    Will be praying.
    Blessings

  5. Mari Mayborn says

    September 4, 2011 at 1:24 am

    Sandra, I’m praying for God to surround your family in a special way and for Him to give you sweet, sweet time together.

  6. Cassandra Frear says

    September 4, 2011 at 6:14 am

    This is so difficult.

    We are the sandwich generation, squeezed between the needs of those before us and after us.

    May God give you strength.

    When you are ready for a break, I posted about the wedding at the Moonboat. 🙂

  7. Linda says

    September 4, 2011 at 12:01 pm

    Praying for all of you Sandra. I am in the same season – this sandwich generation. I pray His grace and peace will sustain you.

  8. Cindee Snider Re says

    September 4, 2011 at 10:32 pm

    Praying for you, praying for your mom! The photo above is absolutely gorgeous — just like your heart.

  9. Melinda Lancaster says

    September 5, 2011 at 12:55 pm

    I’m joining the many others who are praying for you and your family, Snady.

    LYI!

  10. Robin Arnold says

    September 5, 2011 at 7:30 pm

    Surrounding you in prayer, for rest, for healing, for decisions, for relationships. You bless me so often. Prayers up sweet Sandra.

  11. Jennifer@GDWJ says

    September 5, 2011 at 11:17 pm

    Heart sinking here… I’m so sorry, Sandra. I join the chorus of prayers tonight. Love you, friend. xoxoxo

  12. Nikole Hahn says

    September 6, 2011 at 9:24 am

    Saying a little prayer for you right now. :o( I am so sorry.

  13. Nikole Hahn says

    September 6, 2011 at 9:25 am

    That’s suppose to be a sad face. Sigh.

  14. jeri Taira says

    September 6, 2011 at 11:22 pm

    Praying in Hawaii. I hope with you Sandy.

  15. HisFireFly says

    September 6, 2011 at 11:25 pm

    continuing on in prayer for ALL of you, but for you in particular!

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