I’m thinking about it today.
The word alone spews fear.
For the past. For the present. For the future. For the unknown.
We hear that another friend or loved one has become a battleground.
And we wonder if we’re the next target.
We eat the right stuff and refuse the wrong stuff. We exercise and deal with stress. We sleep the recommended hours and avoid known risk factors. We examine ourselves monthly.
We make all the right choices. Or the wrong ones.
And it might not matter.
Some believe that we all carry a cancer gene. That something triggers it. And we may have no control.
We’re all susceptible.
All of us.
My mother-in-law had breast cancer. She died many years ago from other causes.
My aunt had bowel cancer. It killed her.
My mother had bowel cancer. She is cured.
My daughter lost a friend to bowel cancer earlier this year. He was 25.
My friend had an aggressive lung cancer. She never smoked. She died in her 40s.
A family member has liver cancer. He had no idea he was sick until a month ago. They gave him two to four weeks.
Easy to write those sentences. Impossible to grasp the depth as an observer.
I wonder how I would face the news. How would I work through it? How would my family cope?
My mother-in-law faced it as just another issue to deal with.
Some don’t want to see anyone. They just wait.
One friend says his life now revolves around the “big C.”
When the end was near, Maggie called dying another adventure.
A pastor friend just received the diagnosis of prostate cancer. He says, “My passion is to face the cancer well and in a way that brings attention to THE Father.”
His life revolves around the “big C.”
Not control. Not choices. Not cancer.
Jennifer at Getting Down With Jesus wrote about some “big C” words yesterday in My Biggest Fear in Life.
About a cemetery and a cross and a calling.
And I agree with her. My deepest fear is that I will have missed my calling before I’m called home.
I want my life to count in His number system before my system runs down. Before my colors fade and my last leaf falls.
I choose The Center.