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A Letter to My Younger Self

August 21, 2014 By Sandra Heska King

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Dear You,

Yes, you, stretched out there in that lawn chair behind the cement-deer-family-topped, moss-rose-planted mound. You with yet another book in your lap. You probably shouldn’t have burned that story, you know. But it’s okay. It’ll serve a lesson, and it’ll make a good story.

Girl, you’re always going to love books. And words. You won’t be a famous writer, but you’ll share words in many forms–letters and nursing notes and articles. You’ll even earn a little money by writing. And there’ll be this thing called the Internet that’ll allow you to go into all the world to minister and encourage without leaving your lawn chair. You won’t even need paper and pen. Trust me on this.

Don’t worry when words dry up for a season, because they will when you’re living life deep or hard. They’ll come back. You won’t always know what to do with all of them. Oh, and you’re going to learn to love poetry. Don’t roll your eyes. It’s true.

You’ll learn to love the Word and become a student of it.

And you’ll learn to pray. I know you wonder if prayer is even real, if God hears at all–especially when you asked for a pile of money to appear on your bed that didn’t. Or when you begged God to not let your great-grandmother die until after you turned 11 because you thought you could “handle it better” then.

There’ll be lots of no’s, but lots of spin-worthy, breath-taking yeses, too. And you’ll go places and do things you haven’t even dreamed of before you could even dream of being ready. And you won’t be. But that’s when God does His best work.

Of course, you’ll never stop learning. You’ll never lose your sense of curiosity. You’ll never stop wanting to “do” more. But you’ll learn to want to “be” more.

You’ll say “yes’ too many times for the wrong reasons, but you’ll learn it’s okay sometimes to say “no.” And that “no” will sometimes be your best “yes.” Your memories of the slow, easy pace of these days will hold you when life becomes chaotic. Because it will. It will be very, very hard at times, and you’ll suffer deep regret. But there are things you’ll learn that you can’t learn any other way.

You’ll also scold yourself often for your naiveté. You’ll trust too much and believe too easily. This will sometimes cause pain and heartache for yourself and others. You’ll find yourself struggling to forgive yourself and extend yourself grace.

But this same trait will also birth care and compassion and understanding. You’ll find yourself sometimes unable to take a strong stand on many issues because you’ll be able to see all sides. You’ll often be frustrated because of it, but it’s not all bad.

The truth is… your life’s going to make a good story.

What would you say to your younger self?

 

 

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Love you big,

Your older you

(still with a book in the lap)

Sharing with The High Calling’s community linkup.

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  1. Sharon O says

    August 21, 2014 at 11:09 pm

    oh my this opens up a very grand question. Not sure if can answer it… let me pray about that one.

    • Sandra Heska King says

      August 22, 2014 at 8:39 am

      It’s not an easy assignment. 🙂

  2. Brandee Shafer says

    August 21, 2014 at 11:15 pm

    I think I would’ve appreciated you then, just as I do, now. I have one of these letters; I’ll link up.

    • Sandra Heska King says

      August 22, 2014 at 8:40 am

      Awww, thanks, Brandee. Now I’m off to find your letter.

  3. Caryn Christensen says

    August 21, 2014 at 11:54 pm

    Oh my. Beautiful.

    What would I say to my younger self? Great question. I’ll have to give it some thought. She was the stubborn sort and not sure she would’ve listened!

    But how about I get back to you on it? It will give me a good reason to use your pretty blog button 😉

    • Sandra Heska King says

      August 22, 2014 at 8:41 am

      LOL, Caryn. How about you hurry and enter it into THC’s linkup?

  4. Kim says

    August 22, 2014 at 8:49 am

    I am currently trying to figure things out from my past and the impact they have had on my today life, so I am not sure what I would tell my younger self at this point.

    But, the line “You’ll find yourself sometimes unable to take a strong stand on many issues because you’ll be able to see all sides,” this is so me. I am usually hard on myself because of this tendency. Thank you for mentioning this. It makes me realize that I am not alone in this practice and mindset.

    • Sandra Heska King says

      August 22, 2014 at 9:23 am

      Welcome, Kim. That’s always been a frustrating characteristic for me. In some instances, I’ve grown wiser and better able to take a stand–but it so many others, I’m still “wishy-washy”. Maybe even more sore. I’m beginning to wonder if it might be a grace growth. 🙂

      Reviewing our past can be both fun and sometimes quite painful… but it also brings so much understanding to the present.

  5. Martha Orlando says

    August 22, 2014 at 12:53 pm

    I may actually try this on an upcoming blog, Sandy. Let me pray on that one! 🙂
    Blessings!

    • Sandra Heska King says

      August 22, 2014 at 9:17 pm

      I’ll be looking forward to that, Martha. 🙂

  6. Heather @ My Overflowing Cup says

    August 22, 2014 at 9:10 pm

    I love this! It’s a tough question to answer without giving it much thought, but I think I would tell my younger self to trust God completely and follow Him always. Challenging question! Thanks for the post.

    • Sandra Heska King says

      August 22, 2014 at 9:18 pm

      Good answer! 🙂

  7. ~ linda says

    August 22, 2014 at 10:21 pm

    Oh, Sandra, this is so fine. I just was reading in Bonnie Gray’s “Whitespace”…just this afternoon, about my younger self and memories. This just opens the door even more for me wanting to deal with a few issues (as I was rather timid and, probably, afraid), but God will walk through that door with me.
    BUT…I just love this letter and feel like I could be writing parts of it to myself.
    Grateful for seeing the title as I was going onto Still Saturday.
    Caring through Christ, ~ linda

  8. Diana Trautwein says

    August 22, 2014 at 11:01 pm

    Lovely, Sandy. I was invited to write this one as part of next week’s theme at THC – only I was asked to write a letter to my mid-life self. . . from the vantage point of my GREATLY ADVANCED AGE. Sigh. It was fun to do, though. I’ll be up on Sunday and featured on Wednesday. And I think your paragraph about learning to say ‘no’ is the central and most important thing of all! Thanks, Sandy.

  9. David Rupert says

    August 25, 2014 at 1:18 pm

    I think our reflections are too often about the things we should have said “yes” to. But saying “no” is just as important!

    On behalf of the High Calling, thank you so much for participating in the Link Up . All week long we are delving into this topic, so check back often at http://www.TheHighCalling.com. Your post, along with others, appears here. http://new.inlinkz.com//luwpview.php?id=436727.

    David Rupert, Community Editor

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